It’s so hard for me to give up, especially on people. I hold out to the bitter end always hoping that people will change or get better. There always has to be a point where you stand up for yourself and know that you can hope for that person to change from a distance, and hope that one day they will see the light. Not that you will ever want that person back in your life, but that you hope they find some peace in their life and grow as a human being. I’ve always been told that as long as there is life, there is hope.
Over the last ten months I have grown so much as a person and I feel like a butterfly coming out of it’s cocoon for the first time. It’s so strange to look back at my life before. Sometimes I just wish I could pause time and reach in and shake myself at different points along the way. Hey, 18-year-old Jennifer, why are you getting married? Hey, why did you let that person treat you that way? Why, didn’t you stand up for yourself? Why, why, why? But if it hadn’t been for those experiences I wouldn’t be the person I am today seeing things more clearly. It’s always good to know that you have grown and that you aren’t staying the same. Still yet, there are so many things I would say to my 16-year-old self and it would be so wonderful if the 27-year-old Jennifer of today could have tapped on her shoulder back then and gave her some advice. (Believe me there will be a future blog about this!)
I think an important lesson to learn is that as much as you can really never give up on people because things can always change, you should most importantly never give up on yourself. Constantly strive to do better, and evolve and grow into a better person no matter your past mistakes.