I read a book a few years ago called Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World by Joanna Weaver. It has literally been 4 or more years since I read it, but I was just sitting here thinking and it came to my mind. Probably because I am exhausted after everything my hands found to keep me busy tonight, which is not the point, so I won’t bore you with the details. I can really relate to what the author was saying and would recommend it to any woman who feels she has to be doing SOMETHING all the time. If I am sitting down, doing nothing – I almost feel guilty.
There are things that I know I have to do and there are things that I know I should do and then there are things that I want to do but don’t – even though my heart wants to, but my mind and body are so tired! Does that make sense? For example: I know that I have to get out of bed in the morning. I know that I should do the laundry so we have clean clothes. I know that I want read my Bible on a regular basis and my intentions are so good, but by the time I get done doing the other things I have to do, I am too tired to do the things I want to do. Man, this is confusing and a little frustrating to write!
So back to the book. In short, and remember it has been a while, the book talks about how Jesus came to visit the house of Mary and Martha, and Martha was to busy cleaning, cooking and making everything so perfect that she missed out on sitting at the feet of Jesus with Mary and just being with him. Letting him be her Savior. She felt like she had so much to do and so much to prove that she was not able to experience the blessing of him being there in their presence. Of course, we all have a work we can do for our families and for the Lord, but sometimes it is good to just stop and listen and wait and see what the Lord has for us. You know that Martha had to have been ticked off at Mary. There she was just sitting there talking to Jesus while Martha was up slaving away trying to get things done. But Mary is the one who had it right. She knew that Jesus would only been there a short time and those other things could wait.
I am so like Martha. I cannot deny it. There is always something that has to be done, but I want to have a Mary Heart in this Martha World and make time to sit at the feet of Jesus and let him be the Savior to me that he died to be.